Table Talks

Came home one night to find

my heart and my mind

all patches and bruises,

sitting at the kitchen table

waiting for me.

"What do you want?"

All I could muster.

"Write the letter and let him go. 

We can't do this much longer."

The Greatest Joke Ever Told

Here's the thing about love.

Whether you think it's 

big or small,

for you or against you,

the greatest verb in the world

or the biggest joke ever told,

acknowledge that it's real.

You can't run from it

and that's okay. 

Be at peace with this

and you'll be alright.

Eve's Fall

Outside of Eden, after the fall, I wonder
if Eve had to convince Adam
to love all of her flaws?

That's what we all do.
We just want someone to love
past our "I don't need you".

Some of us just hide it better than others.

I Prayed Today

I said a prayer for you today.

I prayed you would have the courage
to come face to face with a mirror
and be proud of what you saw.

I prayed you would speak
with a gentle strength that
would bring people's walls
to their knees.

I prayed you stop hiding from your fears
and be brave enough to recognize that they're
just mannequins wearing masks.

And I prayed you would stop putting my name
and her name in the same category, like we were
ever the same person.

I prayed for me, too.
I prayed that I could move on
and know, in my heart, that I am strong.
I am strong on my own.
I'm strong without you.

For a while I regretted it, but now I see.
The person I needed to pray for the most was me.

My Hands Are Full

Don't try to hold my hand when
yours are full of loneliness.
I won't be able to mop up
the mess that's left and I
like what I have in my
hands right now.
Like healing and learning-and writing.
Yeah, that's good for me.

I don't have room to dwell on you
cause you'd be disappointed and
I would have nothing to carry.

19

Rushing through years
like i've got a lot to spare.
Hard eyes and calloused feet,
these 19 years have been rough on me.
I can focus on the pain, that would be so easy.
Or I could focus on the journey where life has taken me.
Got a lot of plans
that need a lot of prayer.
Pretty big dreams I need to put on page.
I can't be scared anymore.
Can't stop myself, wouldn't be fair.
Gotta wake up, can't sleep anymore.
The time is now .
Gotta open the door.

Fighting For the Light

Here's the thing.
That person you don't think you'll ever get over?
You will.
After days and years and fighting
you'll make it out with one hell of a scar
and a heart that can handle more than you thought.

My advice for the heartbroken.
Fight for the light and the air that will let you breathe again.
Moving on isn't unattainable, it just takes healing
and lots and lots of time.

Tea For One

You know those people
who speak with words
that fill up your cup?

And when they leave
you find yourself missing that tea?

As it turns out,
with the healing and the steeping I have done,
I have found each person can fill
their own cup
with their own type of tea.

Honey. Two sugars.
The usual, please.

It's time to find it in yourself
to be your own brand of free.