Float With Me

And you can look at me

and tell me 

all the reasons

I should stirve to be as 

steady as seven anchors

at the bottom of the ocean.

That is not me.

I can be as weightless as I want to be.

Maybe, eventually, I'll find someone to float with me.

Shining

They looked at her like 

she was a few steps

from shining.

She was a few endless nights,

with tears and mascara running down her face,

from a shot at some healing.

If anyone needed hope, it was her.

Hope would be the thing to save her

because she had seen things

no one with a beating heart and shaky hands

should see.

Hope would heal her.

And, love.

Love would bring the bandaids she didn't know

she would need. 

Then she would heal, one step at a time.

And find herself falling into courage.

Then, when they saw her, they would see.

She has fought to be

and she never stopped shining. 

To Every Man I Have Ever Loved

I won't get over you any time soon,
don't ask me to.

It's not fair of you to expect that of me.

I am not a tree or even a cup of coffee; strong and confidant,
when it comes to you.

But don't be dismayed.
Progress is being made.

But I still miss our 3 am talks
and river-flowing adventures.

So I hope your new job is fulfilling
and your new girlfriend is willing
to touch your scars with safety.

And if i'm one of those wounds,
I pray she let you heal long enough
to forgive my rough heart
and the way it tore itself apart
loving you.

Geting There

Take my heart and make it new.
Teach it to trust in you.
You see, she's been through flames,
put through shame,
done some reckless things
I'd rather not claim.

So forgive me when I hesitate
to hand her to you.

I've had to stitch and pick her up time and time again.

So yes, I confess.

I'm a bit protective of her.
I'm sorry.
That's not all of me.
I would really like to be free.

I'm getting there.
I'm just scared.

Cause your hands look like vaults
and I know they won't drop me.

The one thing that's scary,
that stands in the way.
You make me happy.
I don't know if I could fix her again
if that was taken away.